Chasing Acceptance

The question I ask is...

What is it about Christians that make non-Christians dislike us with such a passion?

I think I have an idea. We make it difficult...plain and simple.

I started to go to Church heavily when I was in 8th grade. A friend in a class asked me to join her and go to youth group one Wednesday night and there my story began as a Christian. I did not become a Christian until my senior year of high school and I cannot lie, I haven't hit that same intense high I use to in awhile. I know it is not because I don't trust in my Lord or what his plans are for me, but I question his people. I question them heavily. I question myself as well.

One thing i've realized is that, if you aren't a Christian or you aren't heavily involved or work at a Church it is hard to find your place. Now many many people may disagree with me because maybe they've been going all of their lives...have a family that won't give them another option.

But from my experience it is tough. I was heavily involved in middle school/high school. But i've found in my 20's/ college years that is difficult to find my place. It seems my only place is on Sunday morning. I feel that is not enough.

It is diffcult for me because sometimes I cannot be there every Wednesday...or every Sunday. Especially on Wednesdays, I work...which makes it difficult to make any kind of thing going on. So I feel as if I am not there every Wednesday on the dot I do not get the same acceptance as others. Maybe its not fair...maybe I should work harder...I am in between on my thoughts.

I feel as if some people get in their certain clicks and they have no desire to hear anyone elses opinions or thoughts which really pushes people away and quickly. Which makes them seem as if they don't want new people...makes them seem like they don't want new Christians or even existing Christians that just want some tiny piece or taste of what is going on.

I am the existing Christian that wants my taste of what is going on, is that so much to ask? I want to be apart of a group that does nothing but chase God. I want that again. It has been gone out of my life for to long now. But now I find myself chasing acceptance and not God, and I cannot lie...it breaks my heart. It shouldn't be that way.