So today was the day. Daniel left.
I am sitting in my room and I can't believe he isn't here sitting with me...
I don't know what to do with myself..I feel lost as ever. I can't remember a time in the last 2 years we have been apart this long. I don't like it.
I know people are like suck it up. Hes not leaving forever. But people need to understand, this man is my life. I cannot help I have fallen head over heels for him. He is my right hand man. He can't do wrong by me. I don't like being far way from him, I like being apart of his life..not knowing makes me panic.
Driving home after dropping him off..I seriously thought I could drive off a cliff. No no I am not suicidal...but thats how I felt. My world seemed to disappear through the doors of the recruiters office...I watched and just bawled my eyes out.
Daniel kept telling me how beautiful I am and how everything was going to be alright. I want so badly to believe him...but my heart is so broken I would just rather relish in my own misery right now.
Don't let this make you think I am not proud of him. He is doing one of the most stand up things and I am SO proud of him. Hes my knight in shining armor...but I want him here. Next to me...But hes not and I am miserable.
What am I gonna do?
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