I know.

I know I have posted now 3 times. But this helps me vent..and scream my heart out.
Daniel just got on the bus for Fort Jackson, makes me wanna scream.

I am so selfish..I don't want him to go! I just don't. I don't want someone screaming in his face. I don't want him to be gassed. I don't want him gone. This makes me just sick..I know this to shall pass...but it never seems like it! It seems SO far away. So unreachable!

I miss my anniversary, his birthday, and thanksgiving with him. It just breaks my heart. I had done so well today and now him stepping on that bus makes me so panicked...no no no.

I had done better today... I guess these are just some of those moments...