I woke up at 7:30 this morning...I didn't go to bed until 2 AM. Its killing me. I just want to sleep in and enjoy sleep again, but my body doesn't seem to want to let me anymore. Its like I am on Daniel time in the Army...I always wake up about 5 AM and if I get lucky I can fall asleep for about 2 more hours...like I said...if I am lucky.
Haven't heard from Daniel since Sunday when he called, I am hoping for my first letter soon. I don't want to send any letters until I am 100% sure what his address is. When I find it out for sure, I will pass it on to everyone.
I am getting use to Daniel being gone...I really don't like it. I feel like im getting use to being almost single. I REALLY don't like that. But I know Im not, I know he still loves me no matter how much he may get to talk or write me. Because this love never fails.
Im just doing the every day dreaming about getting to see him at Family Day & Graduation...and getting to bring him home. Seems like a distant dream...but will be real. Soon. Because I have faith this will go fast. It has to...
You are searching to find your new "normal". That is the hardest part. Believe me, I know. Even now. It won't be ideal but that new normal will get you through the next few months. Right now is the hardest time. I think of you and Daniel daily and give you cyber hugs. =)
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